I know this topic is trending. I know many political issues will come to the fore again. I dislike writing about what everyone else is but my heart aches, so I will go with what my heart wants to write about.
I go to Las Vegas very often. I also regularly attend shows and concerts there. Last time I went to Vegas I had the lingering thought that something terrible could happen while there. And while these thoughts do not serve me, they do plague many minds.
How could they not? With so many recent violent acts, it is hard not to be afraid.
I heard a witness say this morning that he really doesn’t care “why” this person did this. I must agree with him.
I don’t care what you are going through, who you are angry with, who did you wrong, why you are dissatisfied with your life or the reasons you jotted down on paper or in your mind, there is no real “motive” or “reason” for killing innocent people.
I know we are obsessed with finding reasons for all tragedies. I know it is difficult not to put issues, incidents, and things into certain categories to better understand them.
I do much the same, I often want to know more about the “killer” or the person we have to blame for so much pain during such instances. I watch a lot of real crime and forensic shows so I often want to play detective myself.
I don’t want to do that today. I don’t care who this guy was. We have already made so many killers famous through means of their channeled hate. I choose love and I choose to help those affected in any way possible.
I don’t usually donate money to anything, mostly because I don’t have much to give, but that all changed today. I don’t have much to give, but I will give what I can with all of my heart… I donated to the Las Vegas Victims’ Fund GoFundMe page this morning. I didn’t do it for myself, I did it for all of the families affected by this tragedy. I really didn’t have a choice.
This tragedy hits extremely close to home for me. Las Vegas really does feel like a second home for me, it’s definitely my safe haven. I go there to escape the routine and just have a good time (as do most people).
To The Killer: You are a coward. I don’t care why you did this, but I do care that you have instilled fear and pain among humanity in general. I will do what I can to help those that survived and the families of all those involved. I want to know about the people affected, I want to know their stories, I want to know no more about you.
You will only bring us closer together.
I have a friend who I lost to suicide. And while I wish I knew the reason “why”, it really doesn’t even matter anymore. He is gone and nothing will bring him back. The same goes for all those lost and wounded during this massacre. The “why” someone decided to this is inconsequential, in the end, it really doesn’t matter.
What does matter is what we do as a society after such an incident.
I do often wonder if my friend was always mentally ill or if it was a sheer moment of panic that took him over. The same goes for this horrible gunman, I wonder if you were always sick or if you went through a sick moment. But then I think, if I do find this out, will it finally put my heart and mind at ease?
Is there ever a motive or reason for a mass shooting? No. We all have free will and unfortunately some choose to provoke pain upon others and/or themselves.
Love Deeply and Forever,